Redemption

Working through some details of a the "Creativity Book" by Eric Maisel, I am finding some interesting fodder for my current project. OK, I'm going to go ahead and say it, my current creative project -- (aren't all projects somewhat creative? I dunno.) My novel.

There, I said, it. Ta dah.

Why is so hard to say that? I've wanted to be a writer for as long as I remember breathing. And yet, taking that simple step, simply saying that seems huge to me. So let me try it again.

(Breathe).

I'm writing a novel.

There. I said it again. Double ta dah.

Actually, it might be closer to the truth to say that I'm learning to write a novel, something that I've spent a good part of my life wondering how to do. I often would get to the end of a great read and think, "how do they do that? how did they put all those ideas, all those thouhts together and come up with this story?"

As it turns out, that is the great mystery, the thing called "process" to those in the know about writing. Which is why books like Maisel's are so great..they teach you ideas on how to do the creating.

One of the exercises asked, "what word would best describe your current creative project? find it and post it on your whiteboard and use it for inspiration". Words do create energy (hence the recent debate in the media -- refugees vs. evacuees) so posting a word on a whiteboard seems innocent enough until you start playing with words and shuffling them through. Words like "create" have a different essence to them than words like "abandonment". Words create energy.

The first word in describing my current "project" that I stumbled upon is the word "redemption". Which leads me to a lot of questions, questions that are good to ask. Like what is redemption, really? Is it the same as forgiveness? And what, really, is forgiveness? Is it selective remembering? Or not remembering? Or is it forgetting?

Having been raised in a fundamentalist religious environement, I am poorly prepared to address such questions. Ask me where a bible verse is found or who was the fattest king in Israel or what is the name of the place where Jacob wrestled with God -- I can go on all day. But ask me to talk about the sutff that really matters -- the stuff like forgiveness, redemption and all that such truck, and I'm as blind as they come.

Which is why this theme seems so important to me. Hey, by the time you've reach 40 plus, you're probably in need of a little redemption and a whole lot of forgiveness. And if you're not in need, then you probably need to give it a little, which brings up a whole 'nuther ball of wax...if you can't receive it, you probably can't give and on and on we go.

Whether my novel ever sees the light of day or not, these are the kinds of questions that I find fascinating and that I hope to write more about.